Curious Cockatoo

Where to send the kids to school?

ā€œWhat is worry, at its core, but the activity of a mind attempting to picture every single bridge that might possibly have to be crossed in future, then trying to figure out how to cross it?ā€ – Meditations for Mortals, Oliver Burkeman

I absolutely love where we live. Admittedly, the apartment we live in has a couple of problems: somewhat small for raising two kids, no insulation, and a single bathroom without windows. But these downsides are far outweighed by the positive aspects: nice neighbors, a quiet street, and everything you could possibly want right within walking distance (public park, cafes, restaurants, public transport).

Until recently, I definitely saw us raising our two children here. But when I learned what sort of public school we’d have to send our kids to, I became seriously concerned.

I won’t discuss all the issues of that particular school here. All I’m going to say is that it has had deep, structural problems for over a decade. And, as I know from personal experience, even the best teachers can’t succeed in a broken system.

As we believe in the value of education, we want our kids to land in an adequate learning environment right from the start. The school assigned to us definitely can’t provide that. And so we decided that we have to find an alternative school.

Admittedly, our son won’t enter school for another three years (which will double his current age). But given the glacial pace of administrative processes and the overcrowded and expensive real estate market in this city, we’d rather start early. More importantly though, I’m the kind of person that wants to have a plan for everything.

Therefore, it probably won’t surprise you to hear that this problem consumed all of my attention from the moment I learned about it. During the days, I searched for alternatives. During the nights, I had problems falling asleep.

Here’s a list of the options we came up with:

Unfortunately, no clear winner has emerged yet. All options have some pros and some cons. No option is ideal, and no option can clearly be discarded.

What exacerbates the problem is that we want our kids to grow up in a stable environment. We don’t want our kids to change their daycare and school every few years, which limits the sort of experiments we are willing to do.

As a result, I keep cycling through this list. Every day, I select one of the options as my favorite, only to replace it with another one from the same list the next day.

I realize the absurdity of my behavior, but I haven’t yet found a way to alter it.

A part of me would love to just accept the uncertainty and trust that all will turn out well. Three years is so far away. Who knows what might happen in that time?

But another part of me is longing to find a solution now. If only I could identify the ideal solution, then I could begin to act right now.

I don’t know how to resolve that tension yet, so the two things I should probably focus on are: conducting more experiments and practice to live with the uncertainty.

#family